Valerie never meant for anybody to die. She made the list with her boyfriend to vent. She never though he was going to show up at school one day and shoot everybody on that list, but he does. In the end Valerie takes a bullet for a girl she put on the list her self. She doesn't even know why she did it but she does. Valerie lives, and there are some survivors but there are also victims. Students that will never walk the halls again.
Valerie is still deep in love with her boyfriend even though he killed students at their high school. To her he was never a monster. He was always sweet and protecting. A lot of the popular people would always pick on them, that is how the list started. Many names were on that list, more then once in fact and it was Valerie who started it, but she had never imagined that her boyfriend would actually come to school with a loaded gun, he didn't tell her or warn her.
It is Valerie who must pick up the pieces of her crumbling life. Without her boyfriend she is left alone, her parents think she is crazy and her brother is embarrassed of her, her old friends want nothing to do with her. Valerie and Jessica start to talk and sort of become friends, i mean that is the least you could do for the one person who saved your life from a bullet that would have entered your skull.