Impulse

Impulse 
By: Ellen Hopkins
Published: January 23, 2007
Pages: 666
Rating: 



Summary:

Sometimes you don't wake up. But if you happen to, you know things will never be the same.

Three lives, three different paths to the same destination: Aspen Springs, a psychiatric hospital for those who have attempted the ultimate act -- suicide.

Vanessa is beautiful and smart, but her secrets keep her answering the call of the blade.

Tony, after suffering a painful childhood, can only find peace through pills.

And Conner, outwardly, has the perfect life. But dig a little deeper and find a boy who is in constant battle with his parents, his life, himself.

In one instant each of these young people decided enough was enough. They grabbed the blade, the bottle, the gun -- and tried to end it all. Now they have a second chance, and just maybe, with each other's help, they can find their way to a better life -- but only if they're strong and can fight the demons that brought them here in the first place. Goodreads

Review:
   I put "Impulse" last on my list thinking I wouldn't like it. I have proved myself wrong. the swirl of emotions and the raw, bitter thoughts that travel thought these 3 characters minds are truly amazing. I kept thinking to myself I don't want it to end. I fell deep in love with this book, for it has took me on an amazing journey to somewhere I never expected to go. The pain that Connor, Tony and Vanessa all share is truly hard to imagine, that's the one thing that ties them together. What sets them apart is the difference in what pain they have.
   Connor wants to feel loved from his mom, the mom that never kissed him, the one who always compared him to his "Perfect" sister Cara. Connor feels that he will never impress his parents, that he will never be better than Cara. For this Connor pulled the trigger. Will he try again? Time will tell. 
   For Tony his secrets come out, deep dark over powering, mind blowing hidden secrets. Tony was neglected as a child, when he did what was "right" he spent most of his childhood years behind bars. For Tony being gay is what he thought he knew, being raped a 8, by Larry made him believe that. Is he really gay? you wonder, you will see. 
   Vanessa loves the control of where she can bleed, she loves the thrill. When her mom is Bipolar, and Daddy isn't around Vanessa sinks down to a hue of blue. She wants someone to care about someone to love and feel the warmth of their skin. When she loses that she cuts a little deep almost deep enough, but not quite. 
   These lives were saved, but will their minds be after they being brought to "Aspen Springs" ? one will never be home again,and that's why they did it, because they couldn't bare the thought of dealing with "home"